I finally finished this Reflection piece i appologise its just raining non stop for the last week and its hard to get a good photo, the colours are a bit different in the original and the hair is a bit darker than is shown here but you get the idea. This piece wasn't quite what i had envisaged but its one i am calling done. It actually quite appropriate for this time in my life as i am currently in bit of a reflection period. I wont disclose my private life to the whole world on my blog (sorry as entertaining as that might be :) other than to say that i am currently going through a separation to my partner of 12 years. We have a business and 2 kids together so please bare with me and be patient while i sort out my life and get myself sorted. It's sad but it actually quite liberating i think it will be a new chapter in my life and i am actually looking forward to getting on with it.
After the past few days I have also been playing with the piece On Top of the World and not really achieving much success with it at all. Yesterday, i gave myself permission to not struggle with it anymore and i painted over it with gesso. For a while now i realised my passion for creating the image had gone and i just couldn't get the effect i was after. To be honest i am not convinced pastelboard is the surface for me, i am thinking i am better with paper as i still have this tendancy to make everything smooth and blended which is hard to do on the pastelboard. Anyway, so i have painted over it in a effort to put my energy into something else and it feels great to have allowed myself to do that, i think i will move a couple of unfinished canvases which i am struggling with into the shed to put them aside and start fresh :) Sometimes it hard to give ourselves permission to do these things but when we do gosh it feels good :)